Longing & guilt

Certain she will never marry, Penelope Featherington has already decided to leave society behind. Before disappearing for good, she plans to spend one final inter-season at Aubrey Hall… and seduce Colin Bridgerton before she goes. But what begins as a reckless attempt at intimacy quickly turns into emotional chaos. Filled with jealous Colin and painfully unresolved feelings, this angst-heavy Polin fanfiction is impossible to put down. If you love emotionally messy Polin stories where Penelope prepares herself to leave before Colin can truly see her, this fic will absolutely destroy you.
Sometimes, the only way to survive is to leave. And in some of the most beautifully painful Polin fanfictions, that’s exactly what Penelope does: she disappears. This is my personal (and ever-growing) collection of recs where she runs, Colin breaks, and the emotional payoff is oh-so satisfying. I’ll keep adding new fics as I find them — so feel free to check back often 💌
After her father’s death, Penelope Featherington is quietly sent away to become a governess, disappearing from the social scene and the lives of her closest friends. Eight years later, she’s hired by an unexpected household where old memories and hidden emotions come rushing back. Set just after the events of Bridgerton Season 1, this emotional Polin fanfiction is full of slow-burn tension, aching silences, and deep emotional payoff. A story of distance, change, and finding your way back — to love, to family, to yourself.

If you’re looking for an emotional punch straight to the heart (with a warm blanket at the end), this fic delivers.The story starts with Penelope being attacked the very day Colin returns from his travels – and what follows is a tense, heartbreaking dive into grief, guilt, anger… and healing.There’s mystery (who hurt her?), a […]